Naqiyyah's Path of life

Happy Birthday mama. May Allah SWT bless u always and all your dreams come true. I love u always. Have a wonderful birthday;) Mama when she was 22 years old with her first child, Along and her husband, Abah

He has completed the report for his design thesis. right at 420pm, he sent them to his Supervisor PA. Three hardbound copies and one with the ordinary binding. What did i see? I saw his smile. I felt his relief. Thanks Allah SWT because you grant him a good health and not to forget a brilliant mind to submit his design thesis. Thanks Allah SWT for everything;) Ok, Wan Naqiyyah, you have to push yourself to complete your dissertation as soon as possible;) InsyaAllah, there is always a way ;) p/s: thanks to my wife Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan.....woho~ nice dedication bambam. There u go my Mr. Architect. ;) Congratulation my husband for completing your Part Two Architecture Studies.

Alhamdulillah my last paper  for final examination for this final semester , Construction Business  ended on the dot 430pm. Alhamdulillah, i have done my best to answer the paper. Alhamdulillah Allah SWT has eased and helped me in writing the best answer. Alhamdulillah;) The last thing i have to do before graduating is completing my dissertation. Ya Allah, help me in finishing the last course;)

Dan malam semakin kelam. Sunyi serta sepi merapati. Yang masih kedengaran lagu "Ombak Rindu" duet antara Hafiz serta Adira yang sedia menjadi halwa telinga didengari dari corong kecil disumbat ke telingaku. Atau mungkin aku patut masukkan sekali bunyi kipas syiling yang cukup bertenaga menjalankan tugasnya selepas aku mencuci debu yang membantutkan keupayaannya untuk memberi perkhidmatan cemerlang sebelum ini. Dan mengapa aku perihalkan semua di atas?Mengapa aku masih tidak dapat melenakan mata?Kerana aku telah berjanji pada suami setelah dia berpesan agar belajar untuk last paper yang masih perlu aku hadapi. Tapi aku tidak terus meneliti nota-nota construction business yang perlu ditelaahi itu namun aku sempat singgah ke satu blog di laman sesawang dan aku menangis membaca karangan yang disiarkan di blognya. aku terdetik sesuatu. aku terdetik untuk menulis pada malam ini. dan aku memilih untuk menulis entry ini dalam bahasa melayu kerana aku rasa maksud aku akan lebih sa

On last 17 May 2013, i have celebrated my husband's birthday. even it is a delay celebration due to the hectic schedule of an architecture final year student, it was awesome. he was sleeping when i wanted to pick the cake at ground floor as the baker sent me an sms telling me that she has arrived. i ordered red velvet with cream cheese frosting for his birthday. it was really delicious. i love to order the cake at Manis cake because it is delicious. i have once ordered the red velvet cake for my mom birthday last year. Ok, i will upload the photos later. busy studying for my final. pray for me;) Till then;)

Sometimes, i feel something really heavy fell on me when thinking about those past years that i have endured. Sometimes, i ask myself why those obstacles only been tested on me? why my others siblings have not been tested the same too? but later i found the relevant answers. Allah SWT loves me a lot. that is why he gave me those tests to make me stronger. to erase my sins. to multiply my good deeds. insyaAllah. But sometimes, when the thought struck in mind, i should have someone to talk to but it is better for me to write it here. my cyber diary. thanks.

Mulianya kamu, Memburukkan aku, Katamu terasa bebanmu, Untuk menceritakan perihalku.. Walau bertahun berlalu, Walau bertahun tak ketemu, Aku tetap di situ, Menanti sesuatu, Aku rasa kamu tahu, Aku bukan begitu, Tapi mengapa sesedap kamu, Memburukkan aku? Aku tahu perihalmu, Akan rasa cebisan cemburu, Sangat membelenggu, Agar aku tidak bersatu.. Mungkin kau mampu, Mengaburi mata itu, Namun semua tahu, Bagaimana perihalmu, Membuat semuanya bercelaru, Bertahun-tahun perkelahian itu, Tak mungkin aku, Lupakan itu.. Sampai kini, Semua belum henti, Kau ingat aku buta serta tuli? Semua ada dalam benak ini, Namun aku bukan seperti kamu sebentar tadi, Takkan aku taburi cerita basi, Sesedap hati, Kerana apa terjadi, Pasti ada balasannya nanti, Dan aku pasti, Suatu hari nanti, Kau termalu sendiri.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1227pm, 29 May 2013

Usah berjanji jika ingin memungkiri, Usah menipu jika akan diketahui, Menyampah betul kali ini, Sudah-sudah angkat bakul sendiri.. Bukan sekali, Bukan dua kali, Sudah berkali-kali, Bila mahu henti? Nanti orang benci, Baru tergadah diri? Tak perlu menunjuk kaulah puteri, Tak perlu menaja kaulah malaikat duniawi, Jika sebenarnya sekadar mainan di sini.. Aku bosan dengan orang begini, Jika tidak mampu jangan berjanji, Jangan suatu masa nanti, Semua orang terasa hati, Sampai mati rasa sesal sendiri.. Aku bukan malaikat, Tapi aku beringat, Jangan terikat, Jika tak nak buat... Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 853pm, 28 May 2013

Lewat malam ini, Lewat aku tidurkan diri, Mungkin sebelah siang tadi, Telah lama aku beradukan diri.. Lewat bukan sia-sia, Lewat demi periksa, Aku korban masa, Aku korban rasa, Untuk dapat pertama.. Lewat aku penat, Peluh serta berkeringat, Panas dan hangat, Malam ini tak ingat.. Lewat aku ini, Semoga doa mengiringi, Semoga suami redhai, Perjalanan aku kali ini.. Lewat aku bersajak lagi, Lewat nanti sukar bangun pagi, Taknak lah subuh meninggi mentari, Maka aku ingin berhenti, Ingin kunoktahkan di sini. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 117am, 26 May 2013

berat beban itu, berat tak tertanggung aku, berat tidak mampu, namun sedari aku, berdoalah aku, bermunajat padaMu.. sendu tangis ini, tidak berhenti jatuh merebah bumi, tidak berhenti basahi pipi, namun sedari sendiri, doa pada Ilahi, terasa ringan menyelimuti.. hidup nyawa mati pergi, semua ditangan Pencipta abadi, sedari aku kita di sini, bukanlah untuk mencari haqiqi, kerana di sanalah tempat kembali, yang kekal di sana menanti.. suami yang dikasihi, abah serta mama disayangi, abah dan umi dihormati, adik-beradik sendiri, adik beradik ipar diingati, rakan serta sahabat sejati, pendidik yang mendidik diri ini, sedarilah aku jika ada mengguris hati.. aku insan biasa, tidak bisa maksum dosa, namun harapku taubat diterima, sebelum menjengah ke alam sana... Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1005pm, 24 May 2013

the only grandparent that i have now is my grandmother at my mom's side. unfortunately, she is now really sick. i just came back from Kuala Terengganu last night. she can't talk anymore. she can't move anymore. she had been paralyzed because of stroke. i am now at the point that diverged by two options. whether i want to stay a bit longer at Kuala Terengganu or going back to Kuala Lumpur as soon as possible. i chose to be back at here Kuala Lumpur as i have responsibility as a student. yes, indeed i am really worried about her condition but what can i do. i know the best thing that i can do now is keep on praying. ask Allah SWT to ease her sickness and make her as healthy as before. i love her. she has been always praying for me in order to achieve the best thing in this life and hereafter. p/s: please pray for her too dear friends. make Doa a lot;)

angin bayu menyapa, teringat suatu masa, berapa kali kucuba, masih tidak berdaya, masih gagal untuk berjaya.. angin lalu menari, apa itu diari? apa itu memori? semua terbawa mimpi.. aku bukan siapa-siapa, aku bukan keturunan raja, apa yang aku ada, cuma sedetik masa, yang pernah ada, dalam kamar setia.. tapi kini terasa beda, terpanggil rasa bisa, terlupa rasa tidak kena, apa yang aku kata, semua sia-sia.. apalah yang aku ada, secebis memori tua, sebongkah rasa, dari waktu muda.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 204am, 22 May 2013

Indah suatu mimpi, Namun realiti, Tidak seperti, Mimpi tadi.. Indah suatu mimpi, Namun realiti, Tidak seperti aku di sini, Menanti dan terus menanti, Seseorang untuk munculkan diri.. Indah suatu mimpi, Namun realiti, Tidak mampu aku berlari, Mengejar pelangi, Yang aku sukai... Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1059pm, 12 May 2013

Seeing photographs at FB sometimes makes me feel sad. Seeing that they can afford to enjoying themselves with friends and family travelling makes me always goggling and searching for the best price of flight ticket to be bought. unfortunately, looking at the money left in the account makes me realize that the cloud nine is no where near to be reached by me. patience is what i have to digest right now and i think for another some times. ;( sad because i have been dreaming a lot of travelling after finishing my study. i have been waiting for quite several years. pitiful but it is the ugly truth for me to face!

rindu bertamu, terkenang dulu, tika dengar lagu, terukir di bulan yang selalu, aku dengar saat denganmu.. rindu akan masa itu, kamu hantar aku.. rindu kamu mahu, temani aku.. rindu saat itu, saat kita mahu, terikat jitu.. sayangku, aku mahu kamu tahu, aku rindu... Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 315pm, 12 May 2013

Bohong aku katakan, jika aku tidak fikirkan, akan suatu kenangan.. Bohong aku jika, kenangan itu tidak bermakna, tidak beri apa-apa yang istemewa.. Bohong aku nafi, suatu rasa di hati, yang dulu bersemi, untuk kamu di sanubari.. Bohong dan aku bohong, Bohong sekali bohong, Aku takkan bohong, Jika kamu yang selalu kulaung.. Bohong, Aku tak mampu, Hapus memori dulu, Dari membelenggu diriku... Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 153pm, 12 May 2013

Every married couple wants baby to cherish their lives. and same goes to us. Dear baby, Mummy is here. Please come as soon as possible. Mummy misses u so much. Ya Allah, Ease our ways to be parents who can take good care of our child;) Ya Allah, I love my husband.

So far, i have visited Langkawi 3 times and the latest one last week. we departed from Tanah Merah 9am on 1 May 2013 and reached Langkawi Island 715pm (Jetty Point Complex). Then we headed to Sri Lagenda Apartment. My husband and I were not sleeping in Sri Lagenda Apartment because there were my in law there. thus it will be nicer if we sleep at others place because the apartment unit was quite congested with many people. hence, we try to search the nearest accommodation near the apartment, because it got darken, thus we just checked in this one hotel. the Region hotel. Region Hotel We checked in Family room as the standard rooms were full. When we open the door there was cockroach crossed in front of us.*damn the toilet bowl was really dirty and has made me felt like ****** the mirror at the toilet was terrible. u can't see your image anymore. it's too old! the sink pipe leaks. ewwww! *serius geli gila! then next morning we checked out and went out to find other

Terkenang lautan itu, Lautan dosa dulu, Lautan dosa baru, Apa yang aku laku, Masihkah tersisa pahalaku? Ajal aku, Tak terjangkau mindaku, Bila tiba waktu, Adakah masih punya waktu, Untuk aku bergelar ibu? Dunia kian berakhir, Fitnah mengalir-ngalir, Derasnya bergilir-gilir, Tak termampu bibir, Mengucap tasbih dan takbir, Namun di hati bisa terukir.. Aku khuatir, Adakah hadir, Hari terakhir, Aku terpinggir, Atau masih dalam fikir.. Nasib insan, Dalam kehidupan, Pasti terbit harapan, Namun jua ada akhiran.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1111pm, 9 May 2013

today is my hubby birthday. today he is 27th years old. my bambam is really cute. he is my everything. he gives me what others can't give. he means a lot to me. Happy 27th Birthday Dear;)

Bila tulisan menjadi lisan, lisan didengari insan, apa tersirat menjadi pandangan, apa terselindung menjadi bualan.. kalah menang adat pertandingan, tapi menang dalam kegelapan, apa makna ini semua barisan? kamu takut akan pakatan? aku tidak kaya harta, namun ilmu masih ada, walau kukira belum penuh di dada, mampu mentafsir yang jelas dan nyata.. semalam aku terlena, dibuai mimpi sehingga terjaga, tatkala aku terjaga, aku terfikir adakah kamu merasa yang sama? dapatkah bermimpi kisah bahagia, atau mimpi ngeri mengundang duka? adil serta saksama, tuntutan agama Pencipta kita, jangan pernah lupa, Allah SWT ada, di sini kita, bukan selamanya, jika esok lusa tiada, bekalan yang mana, bakal menolong kita? aku bukan sengaja, menulis untuk mendapat puja, namun hati merintih duka, rasuah bermaharajalela, aku tak sanggup terima.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 806am, 8 May 2013

Detik berlalu meninggal mimpi, kini mimpi bertukar realiti, kamu selamat menjadi suami, yang setiap hari, aku rindui.. Wahai suami yang berganjak usia, harapan aku semakin mekar membara, agar usia pernikahan kita, berkekalan sehingga akhir nyawa, seterusnya sampai ke syurga.. Wahai suami yang berganjak umur, jangan lupa menegur, isterimu yang tak cukup umur, hahaha nanti bulan beransur, pasti kita sama umur, eh silap pasti kamu lebih berumur, tika aku cukup umur... Wahai suami yang aku hormati, bimbinglah aku berhemah dihati, pimpinlah tanganku jika tersungkur ditepi, gerakkan aku tika subuh mewangi.. Wahai suamiku, selamat panjang umurmu, aku harap kamu rindu, aku yang selalu tahu, kamu sedang fikir akan aku;) Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 958pm, 7 May 2013

15 tahun dulu, aku dalam duniaku, sibuk belajar demi UPSRku, ada satu malam itu, terkejut beruk aku, dengan suatu berita palsu.. timbalan perdana menteri letak jawatan? lepas habis baris itu aku berkaparan, aku silap dengar atau aku dalam khayalan, Timbalan sudah jadi bekas timbalan? Esoknya, semua akhbar sibuk jaja berita, seks luar tabii penuh setiap dada, akhbar laku tak perlu dikata, aku tanya abah liwat tu apa? abah tak tahu nak jawab macam mana.. pada suatu usia, pada aku terlalu muda, aku disogok berita, yang jelik aku kira.. diusung ke penjara, seorang yang menabur jasa, dipukul tanpa belas rasa, meninggal isteri serta anak tercinta, pada suatu jangka masa, 6 tahun kukira, menderita tanpa dosa, yang dicanang sepelosok dunia.. aku tidak alpa, aku tidak akan pernah lupa, apa yang dia terima, tika saat hiba, dihina oleh jelata, tanpa diberi ruang masa, untuk diri dibela seadilnya.. wahai rakyat malaysia, sudah matang semuanya, dari remaj

i went back to hometown by bus this time. i love Sani's Express because they give the best service that one can get. the seats are huge, my leg can rest with all my heart with extra spaces. usually i will ensure that i buy the single seat instead of double seat if i'm alone. this is to ensure my comfort-ability and also my security. but unfortunately, last night i need to use Transnasional service. what i can say is they are totally out of my pleasure. they tend to make the bus passengers like sardine. my seat was upstair (skyview as mention in the ticket). the comfortable level that i usually get when using Sani's Express service is no where near to what i got last night. Transnasional seats are really small. the legs spaces are ridiculous for the person who own long legs as i am.wakakakaka. when the bus was at it turn for paying toll at Gombak Toll i did ask the driver to drop me at the roadside however he replied he can't but if u give me rm300 he can do it b

Bangun pagi, gosok gigi, pergi mandi, keluar mengundi, dihantar suami, semua pertama kali, along, amir dan ida ada sekali.. saluran empat kami mengundi, cukup panas sekali, panjang deretan sejam berdiri, tapi kami teguhkan hati, akhirnya kami dapat mengundi.. pertama kali pergi mengundi, semangat berkobar membakar hati, doa sentiasa mengiringi, agar syaitan tak hasut kanan kiri.. undi itu adalah rahsia, tak perlu canang merata, yang penting kita undi siapa, yang berkenan di jiwa.. suami tanya pangkah yang mana, sampai kini dia tak tahu siapa, sudah  dikata undi rahsia, biarlah rahsia selamanya.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1149pm, 5 May 2013

5 May 2013 today the feeling is quite differ. my husband sends me and my siblings to Sekolah Kebangsaan Kubang Ikan then he drives back to his hometown to do his part. i have done my part. Along, Amir, Ida did the same. i wish for the best;) i want a better nation. what is left? Prayer. Keep praying for the best. Allah SWT knows better than us;) Along, Amir, Ida and me.

i visited Langkawi after 13 years. Cabel car is awesome. my husband quite panic and try to calm down by hold me tight. HEHEHEHE it was really awesome to be there with loves;)

Alhamdulillah 3 good news: Yesterday i got sms from my sister Ira telling me that i won the first place for the poem competition. the title of the poem is ABAH. i have once share the poem last year in this blog;) Then, i check my email then i realize that i got a place to pursue my study in Msc Construction Project Management at University of Manchester. Today, i have QUEST Family day. we have marathon race. my group got the 4th place;) Alhamdulillah;)

Hardworking comes and goes in my daily life. when it comes, everything is perfect. when it goes, everything seems to be perfect. don't just lazying yourself around. don't procrastinate in your works. your work won't finish but increasing each day. *note to myself also Happy Jumaat everyone. to all men, PLEASE pray Jumaat prayer. as muslimah, we want better leader to lead us.

Ingredients: 8 slices of Gardenia Bread 2 cups of HL Fresh Milk 4 spoons of Castor Sugar 2 spoons of Butter-I used Buttercup Margarine 1 tablespoon Vanilla essence. 2 Eggs 1 spoon Cornflour Some raisins-garnishing purpose;) Custard Sauce Ingredients: 2 spoons of custard powder 2 spoons of castor sugar 1 tin of Ideal Milk The first thing u must do is u must have the determination to make this simple bread pudding. Then, prepare bowls, pot,spoon, tray in order to prepare this. wakakaka. Okay, stop blabbering. 1) Prepare 2 bowls for mixing 2) Put the bread which has been cut into small pieces to one of the bowl. 3) Add fresh milk to the bread and let the milk soak into the bread for about 30 minutes. 4)Mix eggs, sugar,vanilla essence, margarine n cornflour in another bowl. Stir them well;) 5)Then add the eggs mixture to the bread mixture. 6) Prepare the baking tray. 7) Pour the the mixtures into the tray. 8) Then put the raisins on the top of the mixture. 9)

Tik Tok Tik Tok, Bunyi jam tangan kuningku, Masa tidak menunggu, Segeralah istikarah dulu.. Sejarah akan terlakar lagi, Setelah lima tahun sekali, Siapa yang akan mengetuai, Pasukan Pentadbir Malaysia ini.. Saya pilih mengundi, Walau dulu saya benci, Kerana apa guna buang undi, Jika hak saya semua dikasi.. Barang semua tidak berhenti, Naik harga sana-sini, Sejarah tak mungkin dilupai, Minyak melambung naik tinggi, Semua barang nak naik sekali, Roti kegemaran naik aku paling benci.. Aku rakyat Malaysia, Mahu hidup di bumi bertuah ini, Mahu berkhidmat di sini, Kalau semua ini tidak berhenti, Takut nanti semua muda-mudi, Angkat kaki, Lari kerja oversea, Woi, Gaji besar lagi, Tapi kos sara diri, Tak setinggi, Bumi bertuah ini... Maka, Buatlah pilihan terbaik dekad ini, Pilihlah yang mana memberi, Suatu rasa tenang di hati, Tak perlu mengumpat setiap hari, Lima tahun baru ketemu lagi.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 755pm ,24 April 2013

Last weekend i think that i have been too hardworking. hehehe i prepared a lot of food for my husband and siblings. the extravaganza menu will be the Bread Pudding and Batik Cake. i made 3 trays of bread pudding because my sister and husband love it so much. approximately half of the second tray have been eaten by Along. then, i prepared another one tray for my room mates;) it is really easy to prepare those. what u need to have is determination. Apart from preparing breakfast, lunch and also dinner for my husband, i can make those to him. he is really happy-Happy Tummy. hehehehe it is almost 130 am, i should be sleeping. beauty sleep perhaps?hahahahahhahaha Salam;) Seriously Yummy;)

i have done my questionnaire for my dissertation but somehow i need to get my supervisor comments and approval first before distributing the questionnaire to the respondents. hopefully my questionnaire will be approved and if it does have any lack can be alter and improve as soon as possible. Pray for me;) *Salam Jumaat, marilah mencari keberkatan pada penghulu segala hari ini ;)

I'm taking Bachelor of Quantity Surveyor at International Islamic University Malaysia. But the path is quite differ from other universities. we have foundation of Architecture and Environmental Design at Center for Foundation Studies International Islamic University Malaysia (CENFOS) previously being known as Matric UIA. at CENFOS, we learnt Arabic Language, Understanding Islam, Basic Theme of Al- Quran, Mathematics and Statistic, Economics, Introduction to Built Environment, Introduction to Environmental Science, Graphic Communication Design, Environmental Design 1 and 2, Computer. after finishing all the courses then we pursue our studies at main campus at Gombak. one elder asked me in 2011, what course i'm taking at Gombak. and i told him i'm taking QS- QuantiitySurveying. he acted like i have done something miserable. he replied don't u take Architecture? why changing the course? i told him that i have not changed the course but i'm majoring QS at Gombak.

hehehe. my room mate is taking psychology course, thus she needs to do some experiments to see the behavior of hamster. it is a group assignment and tonight is her turn to take a good care of hamster. yeah, this is the hamster. we called it Baby. Baby is so glamour tonight as i capture his photos and put it here. hehehehehe.. he is so active. while the process of taking his photos is carried on, he just shit about 3 of his shit on my palm. yeahhhh! it is like, what the heckkkkkkk..hahahahahaha Baby 

Happy mode @5th Year Architecture Studio, KAED, IIUM taken by Mohd Aizat Kamaruzaman;)

the last time i visited Langkawi was on May 2000. that was when i attended national jamboree of anti drug scheme. (Skim Lencana Anti Dadah). insyaAllah, i will be there with hubby and in law this coming May. can't wait. a lot of things to grab. a lot of things to be bought=P dear hubby, please be alert=D

many people ask me how i can write beautiful poems. where did i get the ideas to write them? and many other questions have been asked. hence this post is dedicated to all the readers out there who are really want to know HOW. 1. i keep on listening to the song that i like. for instance, the songs that give me the idea or the song lyrics blend my stories perfectly. 2. sometimes, i get the idea when i am in the bathroom*woho~ 3. and when i see, hear, think and even taste of something. 4. when i miss someone;) 5. i can't think others 6. six is enough! HAHAHAHHA

wow.wow and wow again. heheheheheh i love gold because i can't wear typical jewelry. don't misunderstood me. it is not i don't like to wear others than gold but i can't. i have terrible allergic with ordinary steel/ non-gold jewelry. thus, because the gold price decreases, i have an advantage.hahahahaha i want to buy a pair of new earring because mine last week have already broken. i have others 2 pairs, however i feel uneasy to wear them. 1 pair is not complete another pair was given by someone thus, the best solution is buying a new one, yeahhhh. i can't wait to go shopping with Bambam;)

terusik jiwa aku, mengisi waktu, melihat tele filem itu.. bertitisan air mataku, melihat wanita itu, pergi meninggal waktu, kerana lahirkan anak baru.. sedih mengulit rasa, dikasari mertua, inginkan cucu segera, lalu diminta, menantu pujuk anaknya, berkahwin dengan pilihan jiwa, bonda.. si isteri telah berisi, namun tetap memberi, suami beristeri lagi, kerana dia bukan menantu di hati.. kahwinlah si suami dengan temannya, namun rupanya tiada berdaya, mengandung zuriat dipinta, kerana pernah celaka.. isteri mithali, dipinang suami, dengan lafaz Ilahi, Bismillah menemani, pergi dijemput Ilahi, setelah hadiahi suami, zuriat dinanti.. begitu tragis, buat kutangis, namun itu magis.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1616, 17 April 2013

meniti titian halus, ada terjatuh jerlus, ada begitu telus.. berkaparan panas mentari, lemas dek peluh sendiri, bagaimana lah aku nanti, waktu aku kembali? lemaskah aku? jatuhkan aku? tidak mampu buang rasa, gentar yang mengusik jiwa, aku mahu bahagia, tidak hanya dunia, namun abadi jua.. biarlah saat tiba, terdekat juga bersama, sepi tidak melabuh rasa, pergi dengan meninggal semua, yang benci serta cinta, semuanya luput bersama.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1043am, 17 April 2013

waktu hilang dalam pandangan, namun masih teringat kenangan, tidak bisa berjauhan, yang baik terindah berpanjangan, yang jelik menjadi sempadan.. aku tidak mampu, menafikan rindu, masih bertamu, menjadi lagu, mengusik kalbu.. sudah jauh berkelana, mencari sinar serta cahaya, menerangi hidup dunia, masih terbayang ketika, kamu dan aku bersama.. pergi aku tidak lama, akan sampai masa, aku akan kembali jua, dijemput pulang dari sementara, ke kekal selama-lama.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1031am, 17 April 2013

Yesterday quiz was quite hard because i did not study that much.  *serve me right! today, the studio is quite hectic because of everyone seems too busy of distributing their own questionnaire to be filled by us. i feel a little bit down because i have not done my questionnaire yet. i have to edit my Literature Review in order for me to generate the idea for doing the questionnaire. Alhamdulillah, Kak Aishah Sehat, my dearest ex room mate and senior helps me a lot by giving me a contact number to deal with for my interview and questionnaire distribution works. Data collection is really hard to do if your respondents are outsiders. Dear my blog readers, do pray for me because sometimes i feel really down and all the weaknesses i have seem accumulated when i depressed.

jangan berkelahi sesama insan,  kalah serta menang,  bulatan atau barisan,  itu sudah suratan.. namun, suratan atau kebetulan, kitalah yang rangkakan, kitalah yang lakarkan.. maka, jangan bertelagah sesama bangsa, kita sama-sama satu agama, tak perlu bertekak sini-sana, benang yang basah tetap sama, tak perlu diangkat isu sama.. kita diberi kuasa, memilih siapa, yang tadbir negara, maka jangan memekak saja, undilah yang mana suka, undi itu rahsia, tak perlu canang merata.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1201am,10 April 2013.

PTD examination. i have been invited to PTD examination. fuhhh.. fuhhhh... fuhhhhh.... what will be asked? anyone know and care to share with me? *drop you comment please;)

Dan... rasa itu berbicara, dengan nurani berkata, mengapa masih ada beda, dalam suatu rasa, pabila terpanggil masa.. Dan... apa yang tercipta, bukanlah semuanya dusta, pernah bertakhta di jiwa, suatu yang beri rasa, yang dilabel cinta... Dan... berkocak hati ini, sekali lagi, dalam meniti, hari-hari berlalu pergi, sampai bila isi, kalbu,hati,nurani,sanubari, engkau tiada di sini... Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1200am, 9 April 2013

Bumi itu, aku rindu, aku seakan rasa kamu, berada dalam jiwaku, setelah pertama kali bertemu.. Bumi itu, beri aku, rasa sesuatu, rasa beda dari tempatku, rasa tenang kalbu, sedingin salju.. amarah aku, dirapi di situ, walau bertelingkah kakakku, namun semua berlalu, mencipta suatu rindu.. Bumi itu, aku rindu untuk bertamu, manjadi tetamuMu, mendakap senjaMu, mencium subuhMu, mendengar azanMu, terus berlalu, menuju kejayaan buatku... Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1123pm, 8 April 2013 Ya Allah, Ampunkanlah dosaku, dosa kedua ibubapaku, dosa  adik-beradikku serta datuk serta nenekku, saudara-mara, kau percepatkanlah jodohku dengan insan yang terbaik buatku;)

today, i have construction business presentation. for my surprise, my lecturer says that the presentation is very good, comprehensive, a good job has done;) *clap-cap-clap well done to my friends and i we manage to do it properly;P for the remaining time that i have here, i will try my best. insyaAllah. do pray for me;) p/s: miss my parents and gemoi;)

terima kasih kamu, terima kasih pilih aku, terima kasih suamiku, terima kasih menemaniku.. kamu cipta sesuatu, yang  setiap hari baru, cinta aku pada kamu, seiring dengan waktu, semakin lama aku perlu, semakin lama makin jitu, aku sayang kamu, sudahlah aku merapu, kau tengah senyum tersipu-sipu, baca karya baru aku? sukalah tu, setiap waktu, aku coretkan sesuatu, semuanya tentang kamu;) Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1035pm, 8 April 2013

dilontar kata-kata, cukup nista dan dusta, tanpa rasa beda, menuai rasa tidak selesa.. aman damai bukan tiket, untuk berebut memekik, tak kira panas terik, menunjuk kaulah terbaik.. kami bukan mahu, dihidang cerita palsu, kami tidak perlu, itu semua berlaku.. terasa pahit di bumi sendiri, seakan dijajah lagi, penjajahnya bangsa sendiri, menidakkan rasa bangga diri, masing-masing memberi, terpancar sifat malaikat dunia ini, ini kali.. semoga perjalanan kita, memilih jalan bahagia, di redhai yang maha Esa.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 946am, 5/4/2013

kamu wahai rusuk kiri, izin aku pergi, aku rasa dikasihi, aku rasa cinta lagi, kamu buat kali ini.. kamu tahu apa berlaku, pada suatu waktu, tika yang diami ku sendu, tika segalanya palsu.. kamu beri aku waktu, memadam rasa dulu, agar segalanya baru, untuk kamu serta aku.. kamu beri aku rasa, cukup rasa bahagia.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 125am, 5/4/2013

apa yang kurasa, selama aku diberi ujian Maha Esa, tika kamu lihat aku merana, kamu tingkat lagi seksa, yang pernah kurasa.. aku lihat kamu kecil besar, mahu sahaja aku tampar, melihat kau makin kasar, memijak bongkah sabar.. aku percaya, suatu masa, aku akan berjaya, aku tunggu waktu tiba, saat kau tahu apa, yang aku ada, dan bakal ada, dunia dan di sana.. kamu buat aku rasa, tiada tersisa cinta, untuk kamu yang ada, di suatu kotak jiwa.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 120am, 5/4/2013

duduk bersila di bangku taman, dengan penuh minat serta harapan, aku mohon diberi tuhan, sesuatu yang didambakan.. doa tiada lupa, setiap malam meminta, agar dapat kurasa, apa yang kupinta.. terima kasih tidak memadai, atas nikmat Kau kurniai, aku dapat tersenyum berseri, kerana harapan bersemi, matlamat semakin menghampiri, kejayaan aku nanti, sejak azali, pasti aku kecapi, berkat izin suami, yang aku cintai.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1025pm, 4/4/2013 Kamulah pelengkap hidupku, penyejuk hatiku, pendamai jiwaku,pendampingku, suamiku;)

my parents

and today it will start with for the first time phrase..it is okay with u guys? HAHAHA! for the first time i'm going to join the General Election. my mom is very enthusiastic by registering my siblings including me for the election. HAHHAHAHAHA! i have told my husband just now to book airasia because he is going to go back to his hometown, and well mine will go back to Kuala Terengganu. HAHAHAHAHHAHA!

when i was in standard 5.i had once have a cat. her name is comel. for my dismay she died. hehehe.. today, i don't have class. so what i do today is googling about cat. Persian Cat. huhhhh? what is happening to me??? i don't sure either. ok, to be continued later.. want to whatsapps with my friend Mas, asking about cat....

Tangis sendiri, bila mengingati, sungguh pantas meniti, waktu yang telah lari.. detik yang berlalu pergi, bukan bermaksud masih sendiri, namun sampai mati, sendiri atau masih berdiri, tetap tidak terjangkau memori.. walau berjuta kali, sajak aku karangi, maksud diberi, akan tetap bererti, sesuatu yang tak terluah hati.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan Wan Ismail, 121pm, 3 April 2013

Ok, for the first time, i want to tell all of you that i have allergic with cat. i mean i can't tolerate with cat. even at my in law, there are many cats, but when i'm being around, they will chase all the cats away.. however, the trauma since i was 4years old seems to fade away. huh? seriously Qiqi. HAHAHAHAHA! However, right now i just miss the cat named Dreamer whom is Fatin Suhana dearest cat. we went to her house last saturday as my sister was invited to visit. at first i felt really uneasy to be around but when seeing the cat is just too cute, i felt something else. i wanted to touch Dreamer so much, then when Fatin asked, whether i want to touch Dreamer, i said i want;) the furry Dreamer is really cute. i miss him already. Bambam, let's give a try. *jom beli kucing yg dah pandai dan cantik bulunya macam Dreamer.

today is the first time i absent for this final semester. runny nose. diarrhea. complete set. hope to see friends and room mates soon;)

Alhamdulillah i have a great life since i am married. Allah SWT has ease my way to achieve what i want in this life and here after. i have a very understanding husband who never fail in giving the best for supporting me. dear bambam, happy 7 months anniversary. counting. still counting until Jannah, insyaAllah.

if i could say that i hate several people in my life, i will a least make a long list, here in my blog. i will write their full names without hesitation. if i could say that i hate some stupid people who make my love one feels the burden, i will shout out loud to them without any doubt.. but what i can earn by doing all those things? i earn hatred- for sure i double/triple the list of enemies and many negative things will appear.. hence, i will not disclose their names. for this moment. for sure. OR i will never do what i could have done..

a story which is a sad one is always make my heart feels something.. and this thing is really uneasy thing.. my condolence goes to the one who have lost their first child.

kadang rasa rindu bertamu, kadang rasa pilu bertemu, kadang aku rasa malu, kenapa semua ini berlaku? kadang aku rasa mahu, kembali pada suatu waktu, tapi semua telah berlaku, tiada aku mampu merubah waktu.. kadang aku perlu, ekspresi rasa rindu, agar tidak membelenggu, mengganggu hariku, dari rasa pilu berlagu.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 413pm, 28 March 2013

aku ingin lari, dari apa kumiliki, agar sampai saat nanti, jenuh rasa hati, akan dihargai, bukan dicampak keji, rasa sebal melingkari.. aku cuba, apa terdaya, namun jika, sudah tersurat jua, tiada perlu ditunggu tersirat tiba.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 639pm, 25 March 2013

rasa sesuatu, membelengguku, mencari rindu, dalam taman kalbu.. rasa sesuatu, berlaku pada diriku, harap ia jitu, agar mesra bersatu.. kasih terbina, indah segala, kamu menjelma, bahagia tercipta.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan hassan, 1148am, 22 March 2013

kamu yang sentiasa di situ, kamu yang berada di hatiku, kamu yang cipta rindu itu, kamu yang aku rindu... kamu yang melengkapi hidupku, kamu adalah suamiku.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1130pm, 20 March 2013

Korea has always been a place that i want to visit the most for my honeymoon. it has been a decade counting for me of waiting to be there. i still remember Winter Sonata has always be the best drama ever to watch 11 years ago. how fast the time flies. realizing that it has already passed a decade, but still Korea is not reached by me, it is too pitiful. huhu.. insyaAllah, later if i were given a chance to be there, i will be there and guess what, of course with my lovely husband, Mohd Aizat Kamaruzaman. since then, i always tell the closest person to me about visiting Korea. and still it has been half a decade....

walau helaian rindu antara kita, tidak pernah senada mahu sekata, penuh beza dan beda, aku tidak pernah alpa, dalam menilai cinta,datang dan pergi sesuka sahaja.. cinta yang terlahir, bukan sekadar zahir, namun hulu dan hilir, tetap mengalir.. kisah antara kita, mana mungkin kulupa, mana mungkin kualpa, dan mana mungkin aku tak cinta... Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 910am, 16/3/2013

Tidak kulupa, Saat menderita, Kerana derita, Aku bangkit berjaya.. Takkan luput dari jiwa, Tika aku di saat hiba, Sakit derita aku terima, Malu dicemuh serta dikata.. Tunggu saat aku tiba, Tunggu saat aku berjaya, Akan aku bukti semua, Aku tidak mungkin lupa, Apa yang aku terima, Dari kamu semua, Pada detik hiba... Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1043am, 15 March 2013

Kubuka jendela, Sejak mula, Tertutup sentiasa.. Kubuka jendela, Langit biru menceria, Suria pagi tersenyum manja, Kataku dalam jiwa, Cukup indah ciptaanNya.. Kubuka jendela, Kau datang tanpa kuduga, Mencari sinar sebalik tabir suria, Aku terbuka terima dia, Untuk menghiasi hidup di dunia, Jua untuk alam sana.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1037am, 15 March 2013

Alhamdulillah my tennis team got 3rd place for university sport carnival 2013. it is really good to win even the 3rd place as we are the beginner in tennis playing. it will be one of the best memories that i can cultivate here in IIUM. hope that the ukhuwah that bonds us will never be apart;) love all of you.

searching for the right university to pursue your master study is exhausting. you don't even know which is the best. what course is the best for that. if the university rank is good, it does not offer the course u wanted.*pitiful* i enjoy studying contract administration in my pre-grad i do enjoy measurement. i do enjoy contract law and land law. hurmm..*sigh* MARA application for pursuing study in oversea will be closed 14 MAY 2012. too fast. pray for the best. wish me luck. oh no, pray for the best for me;)

Sedari hidup di dunia tak lama, Habis lama 70 tahun usia, mengapa dibazir masa perkara sia-sia, Seksanya selama-lama, Mengapa mahu dicampak neraka? Marilah kita insaf bersama, Bukanlah di sini kita selamanya, Esok lusa mungkin tiada, Apa bekal yang kita bawa? Jangan nanti terjerit-jerit, Dipukul diseksa sangatlah perit, Tiada teman sahabat karib, Yang ada hanyalah liang sempit. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah 1228pm,11/3/13

Rasa selamat, Tergugat hebat, Rasa selamat, Hebat bergolak.. Pintaku sejak dulu, Dilekeh sebegitu, Injak rasa sesalku, Kerana pilih kamu.. Kisah hati, Bergolak begini, Buat terbit benci, Sehari demi sehari.. Kasih kucipta, Mungkinkah bahagia, Atau ada masa, Teratak yang dibina, Punah merata.. Pintaku satu, Jangan sampai aku, Minta sesuatu, Sesal seumur hidupku, Jua seumur hidupmu.. Nukilan: WN 11feb2013,508pm

mama, hati rasa bisa, merana dalam jiwa, tentang berbisanya kata, takkan luput dalam jiwa, rasa sebal buat merana, kata-kata dari mereka, yang tiada alpa, buat aku rasa tidak selesa, akan ku anyam sekata, akan ku ingat hingga, roh terlerai dari anggota, sampai bila-bila.. aku tiada mampu, padam rasa kecewaku, walau waktu berlalu, rasa kesal masih berhantu.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1109am, 3 March 2013

rasa kesal, rasa sebal, rasa merana, rasa pedih, rasa marah, semua bersatu, takkan mungkin luput, dari jiwa serta hati hampa, melihat dari kejauhan, diri diperbodohankan, rasa ingin saja kuinjak masa, kembali saat kau tidak bisa, memegang suatu yang beri rasa, cinta itu buta.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1107am, 3 March 2013

half year=6months hehehehe.. it has been 6months/half a year i am married. time flies so fast. we are still counting. hope we are together until Jannah, insyaAllah

Jika aku boleh minta tuhan, Minta beri masa tambahan, Untuk aku hapus dosa selautan, Yang tidak tertanggung beban.. Jika aku boleh ubah masa, Akan aku kembali semula, Detik tika aku baru hirup udara, Agar semua noda tiada.. Jika aku diberi peluang, Aku akan cipta sayang, Pada semua orang, Agar segala dendam bersarang, Dalam jiwa padam menghilang.. Namun aku manusia biasa, Yang tiada apa-apa, Tak mungkin maksum dari dosa, Hanya ada satu cara, Taubat nasuha, Bersih semua, Tenang jiwa.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan,1219pm,7 february 2013 

Laluan untuk menuju puncak bukanlah mudah, Kata orang usaha tapi kata aku jangan mengalah, Kalau usaha namun akhirnya menyerah, Terjelopok di tepi terima kalah, Baik pergi tangkap udang galah, Balik masak gulai tambah kepah, Pasti nasi bertambah-tambah.. Cerita setiap insan punya beda, Ada yang ceria ada yang duka, Kan sudah dikhabarkan jelata, Hidup itu seakan roda, Barulah hidup penuh makna.. Kalah, menyerah, duka, Jangan biar dihimpit hiba, Biarlah orang mengata, Asal kita tahu apa, Yang kita ada, Dalam jiwa.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1157pm, 6Februari 2013

i have a cousin who breastfeeding her daughter. she is really good in preparing her daughter meal. she does it by her own. Nayla Amna is already a year. my cousin never failed in preparing the best for her daughter. it makes me feel that i want to be like her. preparing the best for our own child. if i have given the chance to have a child later, i will try to be as hardworking as her in determining the best for my child. thanks Along for the very inspiring posts in your blog..

sudah tiba masa, untuk aku rasa beda, daripada waktu biasa.. aku harap beza itu, adalah sesuatu yang baru, meniti hari-hariku, kamu ada dalam diriku.. hadiah cinta dari Ilahi, moga kamu berjaya meniti, hari-hari kami, kamu cahaya di nanti, menjadi penyejuk hati.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1235am, 26 February 2013

i have made up my mind to be more positive i have made up my mind to be active i have made up my mind to be talkative i have made up my mind to be a tennis player for USC hehehehe

hati ni parah, merindumu tiada arah.. rindu untuk dirimu, pahala pasti buatku, merindui insan halal bagiku, bakal papa anakku.. kamu cipta hati, tiada berhenti, senyum sendiri, rindu berbunga mewangi.. kamu anugerah, paling indah, untuk gubah, aku ada arah, untuk curah, kasih berkuah-kuah.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 1101pm, 25 February 2013

today, i sent a birthday sms to a significant person in my life. then, she replied that she is touched with the birthday's sms because i have never failed in remembering her birthday's date and she hopes that Allah SWT will bless me, my husband and so do my family. thanks to her for the warm prayer. i wish she is happy and blessed by Allah SWT too. a sms is too cheap but birthday's sms even it is only a cent but can give thousand or even million meanings and smiles. wish u a happy life ahead;)

Sometimes, we always take things for granted Please don't take things for granted after the things that u had taken for granted was taken back, then u will realize that u forget to be thankful. thankful is a matter that simple but not everyone can do every single day. hence, starting today and the day after this, please say Alhamdulillah to whatever circumstances u are facing because after all they are all presents from Allah SWT to us. i have started it, Alhamdulillah;) Again, say it louder, Alhamdulillah. think positive, be positive, Alhamdulillah;)

Everyday i thank Allah SWT to send me/ give me you my hubby, Mohd Aizat Kamaruzaman. Everyday i never miss to pray Allah SWT to ease our way and forgive us for all the sins Everyday i see your childhood pictures because you are too cute to be seen. hopefully that our children later will become as cute as you. Everyday i dream off to see you whenever i get up from sleep. Everyday i love you and i hope that we can love each other until the last breath of us and jannah, insyaAllah;)

Final semester 4 subjects to be completed: STUDIO-Measurement of Civil Engineering Works DISSERTATION-Project Paper PROJECT MANAGEMENT CONSTRUCTION BUSINESS Alhamdulillah, i got the supervisor that i want for my dissertation. i met him yesterday to consult my topic of dissertation with him. tomorrow he wants to meet all his supervisees at 1030am. i hope i can complete this semester with flying colours i hope the flying colours result last semester will be repeated or be even better than it;) i don't know what to share because too exhausted good night;)

tidak diberi apa diidami, bukan tidak disayangi, namun ingin diberi, apa yang patut dimiliki.. Dia lebih mengerti, segala dari isi bumi, apa yang terbaik buat diri, apa yang lebih signifikasi.. tangis bersepah, bila jadi sampah, tangis bersumpah, takkan jatuh mengalah.. rasa pedih bangkit diri, usah dikenang duri, duri sudah lari, diri mesti lebih lagi.. percaya skrip Dia, redha jalanNya.. Nukilan: Wan Naqiyyah Wan Hassan, 135am, 8 January 2013

Alhamdulillah.. On the dot after 2hours, at 430pm i finished my last paper. Alhamdulillah i managed to answer the questions. Hope to get a good result. The papers before this quite hard. Hope there are some ex-gratia from my lecturers in giving me a good mark. Tomorrow i will be having a meeting with the dissertation coordinator. Next semester i'll be doing my dissertation. InsyaAllah it will be my last semester. Ya Allah, Please guide me, Ya Allah, Please ease my way.. Hopefully i can do better next semester. Thanks tremendously to my husband who is always be there for me throughout the whole semester. he never fail in motivating me in giving the best